I believe in happiness…true happiness..we search for it all our lives and want it all the time because it’s hard to come by. I remember thinking that I would never be happy again. I was sick, fatigue, and depressed during most of treatment, It was difficult to even imagine a future. I use to think what is the point of planning for something down the line when down the line may never come for me. When your younger in age and newly diagnosed, everyone says your just so young to have cancer, breast cancer in particular. It was once considered a disease for older women. I’ve met women in their 20’s and 30’s who fight this disease everyday. We are a close community of women that have a common goal…beat cancer into remission!
As I stated in my previous post this month is my cancerversary..2 years cancer free. I hope to stay in remission forever. I can’t imagine a recurrence, I don’t know that I would be as strong as the first time around. This disease is nothing you can prepare for, their is no manual, no two cancers are the same, and no two individuals cope with the disease and treatment the same. I pray for my health all the time, something we all take for granted.
I never celebrated my 1 year cancerversary. I honestly thought I would totally jinx myself. The fear was still there, the horror from the whole ordeal was too fresh in my mind.This year I’ve been working real hard on building myself up, I’ve been focusing on what brings me happiness. I would stay in bad relationships because I focused more on someone else happiness. Now I can walk away and not feel any level of guilt. It’s not that I don’t care about them, it’s just that I care about me more! What steps are you taking to find your happiness?
My first step was to start doing things that I enjoy doing, even if no one else wants to do it with you. I enjoy blogging…so I blog! I like shopping and since I have a limited budget, I thrift and combine my thrifted finds with accessories and maybe one new item. For example, the dress I’m wearing was less than $22…I was shocked it fit, the only issue is the lining under it is too short, I will work on getting it properly lined inside. I love the lace design, it makes the dress. The gladiator sandals are new but with in my budget. I don’t think you need to shop all the time. I recycle my outfits over and over again.
I made my own floral crown…I really need to do a DIY section cause I’m always making stuff. I love art and that is another passion that I plan on incorporating into my blog. I hope you all enjoy the pictures and have a great weekend!!
Sandals: buy it here
floral crown: DIY here
Bag: See similar here
Accessories: Old from my jewelry line