End of Summer Blues

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Hi there! I know your probably wondering, where the hell has she been? LOL…covers face…unable to give a good reason for not blogging in such a long time. The months have seriously flown by and I can’t believe summer is coming to an end. I’ve been busy just living, I’m learning every day that I have to make my health and happiness a priority. I use to be busy doing everything except taking time out to be still. At times I lose track of me because I work full time, I’m a single parent, and I’m trying to juggle multiple things in my life. I start having insomnia, my body starts aching, I gain weight, and I feel overwhelmed doing the smallest task.

When I start feeling that way, I know I have to slow down and make some adjustments. I decided to take a much needed vacation, to celebrate my birthday in lovely Miami Beach. I was able to stop in and spend quality time with family while I was in Florida. I also started back at the gym, changed my diet, and I avoided social media of any kind. I find social media to be so addictive. There is a lot going on in the world, everyone has live videos, I would find myself up really late reading about something or watching one video clip after another. Then I would get up the next day and feel like crap because I got less than five hours of sleep.

I’m so happy that the Olympics is over. I stayed up late every night watching my favorite athletes compete. Now my son is back in school, which means more to keep up with every day. I’ve been wanting to blog but I’m either exhausted or just feeling blah! I’ve been letting my hair grow back because I want to try styles that need a little more length but boy has it been a fight, I’m tempted to cut all my hair off but for know I’ll be trying some really cool protective styles.

 

 

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I got this dress as a gift. Zara has always been one of my favorite retailers. I love the soft brushed denim feel. The dress is roomy and the neckline is adorable. This outfit is more of my day to day summer wardrobe. I enjoy dresses that are comfortable and practical for my lifestyle. I’m looking forward to trying out new trends for the fall, it will also be nice to change up the wardrobe a bit. What trends are you looking forward to for Fall/winter 2016?

Please enjoy the pictures & thank you!

 

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Dress: Zara, see similar here

Choker: Zara

Love,

 

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Black Jumper & Tropical Print Sneakers

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Hi guys! Look at who’s rocking sneakers…LOL! Seriously, I’m not a huge sneaker fan. The sneaker has to be cute in order for me to even buy it. These tropical print sneakers definitely pass the cuteness test. I usually only wear sneakers to the gym, when I’m running errands, or hanging with my son for our play dates. I own several pairs of sneakers and they last forever because I hardly wear them. In fact I had no plans on wearing these today. I couldn’t find my sandals and I was in a rush so I threw them on. I actually like this sneaker jumper combination. What do you think?

I want to challenge myself to wear more sneakers or just casual looks in general.  can’t do heels nearly as often as I use to. I own a few colorful ones and I love Converse Chuck Taylor’s, Adidas Original Superstar’s, Puma Roma Basic’s, Reebok Classics, and 574 New Balance sneakers. I’m excited already to convert a few of my more dressed up attire into casual outfits, starting with this one!

 

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Jumper: Charming Charlies buy it here

Sneakers:Buy it here

Bag: H&M buy it here

Xo,

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Tropical Print Off The Shoulder Blouse & White Pants

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I’m excited for this weekend because once I again I get to reconnect with old friends. A few weeks ago I took a little weekend trip to Connecticut for the Cancer Care Walk/Run and it felt so good to see old faces. I was excited to see friends and family that have always been there for me… before cancer, during treatment, and after the storm. My story made the Greenwich Times, see the article here! My friends and family mean the world to me, they have all helped make my recovery so much easier. This weekend I’m headed to the beach and even though, I don’t get in the water much it’s nice to sit on the beach and chill out with close friends.

 

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I’m the worst packer because I’m so indecisive. I can’t make up my mind about anything because I’m always thinking…what if the weather is bad? what if I don’t bring something I need? I usually wind up over packing. I end up bringing the entire house and I only wear one or two items because I hate the fuss. It’s only for a long weekend and My luggage looks like I’m going away for an entire month. I’ve gotten better over the years but I think I still over due it.

 

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I’m all about off the shoulder tops, expect to see more as we head into summer. In one of my latest post I wore a coral colored on one with plain blue jeans. I found this one at TJMaxx for $6…yes, just $6 bucks! I’m here for fashion but I don’t think it’s necessary to spend a ton of money. I love the tropical print, it reminds me of the islands and since I’m an island girl it works perfectly. I’ve had the pants for about five years. I purchased them at Kohl’s, the brand is Jennifer Lopez. Another trend that I’m obsessed with is fringe. I have a camel colored fringe bag about the same size as the black one featured in this post. When I like something, I’ll typically get two of the same thing in different colors. The style is not exactly the same but they are very similar designs. What trends are your currently enjoying?

 

 

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Pants: Jennifer Lopez for Kohls

Blouse: TJMaxx

Bag: TJMaxx

Shoes: Target

Wuv,

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The Ta-Tinis Present: Fight Like A Girl Flag 9 Benefit

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I met the Ta-Tinis during my chemo treatment at SCOA in 2014. I was 34 and had been given the worse news of my life. At the time I didn’t know of any other women my age that had gone through this nightmare. After my biopsy results confirmed the type of cancer I had, I was sent for counseling at SCOA to go over my treatment options and to start chemo cycles. I remember being given a huge bag of stuff at the end of the meeting. It was filled with things that helped me get through chemo. The bag and it’s contents were put together by the Ta-Tini’s. I met them in person a few months later at a Young Survivors gathering. They are all super sweet and have really warm personalities. I was happy to finally meet other women who had been diagnosed at an early age like myself.

 

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They along with SCOA organized the event. They have been doing it for several years and I love that they have found ways to give back, support, and celebrate women who fight breast cancer everyday. I hope to do the same using my social media platforms. I want  to focus on celebrating life, self love and finding happiness from within.

The theme of the event was the 1940’s, which had such beautiful fashion. I thought I would put my own spin on it…starting with flowers in the hair, which I’m currently obsessed with doing lately. I bought a stem of flowers from Michaels craft store, the entire branch was $8. Each flower was adorned with rhinestones and pearls. The flowers looked so real and pretty.

 

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I purchased the dress clutch, & shoes at Marshalls. I got everything for under $100. I’ve had the belt for years, not sure what retailer I purchased it from but it’s held up really well.

The event was wonderful, I didn’t take a lot of pictures because I was too busy stuffing my face, enjoying the music, and good company. Enjoy the pictures…I’m feeling lazy today…xoxo!

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Dress: Marshalls see similar here

Shoes: Jessica Simpson see similar here

Clutch: Marshalls see similar here

Belt: Old see similar here

Love,

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Denim & Sheer embroidered Top

Hi everyone! “It’s Michelle My Belle”…also know as Roxy, Shelly, and a few other nick names. I’m working on deciding what direction I want to take my blog in. It started out as a way to advertise for my accessories, then later turned into a fashion blog, it worked for a while because the two went hand in hand but I felt it was time to make some changes. I still sell my jewelry but it’s not my main focus anymore so I changed the name of the blog and my other social media platforms.

I was not in the mood to create another blog from scratch, blogging is difficult enough and it’s taken years to get to this point. My actual name is “Michelle” and I thought it would be nice to tie my name into the blog title. I figure since so much of what I write about has to do with me personally it just made sense…what do you think?  Once I figure out all the technicalities, I think a blog revamp would be a great start for my future goals.

I feel like I’m warming up to these outfit of the day posts. The whole concept is starting to come back to me LOL! At first everything was so awkward posing for the camera but I think I’m getting closer to my comfort level. It must be the 8 pounds I lost..wooohooo!! Now that I eat differently I realize just how much I was over consuming. I’m not on any special diet, I’ve just decided to pay better attention to how much and how often I eat.  It was really important for me to make these lifestyle changes.

The beauty of living in the south is that it’s only March but the weather is perfection! It was gorgeous today, sunny, light breeze, with flowers popping up every where. Signs that spring is just around the corner. I fell in love with this sheer embroidered top that I found at Ross Dress for Less it was $14 and I had to have it. It’s light, flowy, and feminine. I paired it with a white cami and some basic blue jeans.

I purchased the shoes and bag at Marshalls because I’m basically addicted to that store. I don’t think I ever walk out empty handed. I think they have the cutest selection of accessories for reasonable prices. The shoes are so comfortable and the bag has nice detailing on the front.

Enjoy the pictures and thank you for visiting!
XoXo
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Jeans: JCPenny
Bag & shoes: Marshalls
Blouse: Ross Dress for Less
 
 

 

Stripes and Leather

I remember when I was first diagnosed with breast cancer. I thought that I would never see myself the same way again. The funny thing is I don’t, I had lost my hair a few weeks into treatment and I immediately began losing weight.  I was stressed all the time, I thought about death all the time, and I worried all the time. It took about a year to move on and I imagine it will take  a lifetime to adjust to all the changes.

Truth is one day you wake up and you realize that your still here. All your friends will move on and
the out pour of attention from your initial diagnosis to the end of treatment will slowly dissipate. In the beginning of treatment everyone wants to know how they can help. When you complete treatment, they assume your fine because you look healthier. It’s all one big misconception, I’ve watched women with terminal cancer look like they never had the disease to begin with so the saying ” don’t judge a book by it’s cover” is the best cliche phrase to describe breast cancer.  Did you know that decades later this disease can return? It’s horrible to think that after poisonous treatments like chemo and radiation, the treatment process would have to be repeated. It’s the kind of  reality that no one should ever have to face especially since it’s likely to return as stage IV terminal cancer.
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The word “terminal” is so chilling, just imagine there never being an end to treatment. I’m sure you’ve all seen adults and children in your news feed on Facebook holding signs that read ” Today is my last chemo” in celebration of the end of treatment or at least one part of treatment. Can you imagine there never being an end? Can you imagine doing chemo and radiation for as long as your body is able to hold up? Once you become terminal, that is the plan. People living with metastatic breast cancer will go from one treatment to another until it either stops working or you stop working, meaning death.
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How does anyone live a “normal” life knowing that death is right around the corner because there is no cure. There is so much emphasis placed on building awareness but so little goes towards actual research to find a cure! It’s infuriating to see how much money so many non profits raise each year but there are still hundreds of men and women dying from the disease everyday. If you really want to make a difference support organizations like Metavior! It’s one of the only organizations that puts the majority of your money towards research to find an actual cure.
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Just imagine how many lives we could save!
As always thanks for stopping by I hope you love the pictures xoxo!
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Skirt by Forever 21

Jacket Express

Blouse TJ Maxx

Shoes by NineWest sold at Ross

Wallet Target

 

 

 

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I finally got around to posting an outfit of the day!…yikes… It’s been a long time since I’ve had the courage to model in front of the camera. Mainly because I have gained weight and I’ve had no desire to showcase these extra pounds. Most of the weight is due to medication, which causes all sorts of hormone changes and slows down my metabolism. I feel so sluggish and achy some days. Another problem is I don’t have as much energy as I use to,thanks to chemo and radiation. My body has seen the worst of times over this past year. It use to be effortless to take pictures and feel confident. Now I’m worried about covering up scars and ways to hide my weight gain, it’s exhausting.
I wasn’t motivated to lose the weight until recently. I was stuck, I ate more, didn’t exercise and felt tired all the time. It was a horrible feeling. At first I thought I was putting back on the weight I lost during treatment. Then it just crept up on me and wouldn’t budge. I couldn’t take it anymore, I was uncomfortable all the time. Nothing fit and I refused to go shopping for larger sizes. I decided to join the gym, I go 3-4 times a week, for at least two hours, thankfully the pounds are slowly melting away and my energy is coming back. I feel better overall, I guess exercise really does the body good.
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I had a latissimus Dorsi Flap procedure in October of last year. I have yet to complete my reconstruction. I’ve put it off for months because I was tired of being carved up. Cancer really sucks!..nothing worse than having scars all over and breasts that have no sensation. I have one temporary tissue expander in my left boob and an actual silicon implant in the other. The whole experience has been one crazy emotional mess.
I feel like there is no plan for life after treatment. When I started out, there was a plan, a diet, a routine, it sucked but it was a “road map” to recovery. I don’t know that I will ever get use to life after treatment. I was lost for a while, I found it hard to adjust, which is weird because I’m usually in control and adapt to change easily.
I’m not going to complain though, I know countless women who have metastatic breast cancer (stage IV) terminal cancer that will be in treatment for the rest of there lives. Having any terminal disease is a tough reality to live with daily. My heart goes out to them.
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I try stay focused and positive. It helps with depression and survivors guilt. I wanted to get back to doing something I love to do. Fashion has always been one of my favorite hobbies so I wanted to get back to blogging. These days I look for fit and comfort when choosing pieces for my wardrobe. I go for clothes with higher necklines, loose fit, and patterns that compliment my style. I’ve always loved a pair of jeans and pumps, it just works well for different occasions. I’ve had the jacket for a while, it’s by Loft, see a similar style here. The bag and pumps were affordable pieces from T.J. Maxx. The blouse is from spring of last year, I purchased it at Kohl’s.
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I hope you enjoy the pictures and as always, thanks for stopping by…XO!

 

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Push Forward

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You say, “It’s impossible.”…. God says, All things are possible.  

 
I’ve finally completed chemo…WoooHooo! Six cycles from June to October and while I still have far to go with treatment, I’ve decided that I’m going to celebrate every milestone because it’s a BIG deal to me! I started getting a sinus infection just days before the last cycle, thanks to my little ‘germ box’ five year old son ;). He goes to school and brings home all his cooties to share with mommy….you gotta love kids. I felt so guilty for not having energy to run and play with him. I did everything to rid my body of that cold because I was determined to get through that last cycle. When I arrived for treatment my doctor was concerned because my labs came back with a very low hemoglobin level. He debated for a little about holding off on chemo and possibly doing a blood transfusion. After reviewing the complete lab work he gave the green light to move forward with the last infusion…thank goodness! I just wanted to get it over with because my body was ready to throw in the white flag. Let’s just say that between these miserable hot flashes, lousy taste buds, and nightly leg cramps, I’m ready to give my body a much needed break from the ‘chemo beating’.
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I was so grateful to have friends and family go with me for my last cycle. My sister, whom I haven’t seen in a few years, flew in from London and my amazing friend Steph flew in from Connecticut for the ‘Ringing of the bell’ ceremony at SCOA. I wanted to cry when I rang that bell, I was so full of emotion. I’ve watched on the side lines for months as other people got up and rang the bell. It was a joyous moment, one that I will never forget. I remember when I first started my treatments at SCOA, I didn’t know what to expect but the nurses and doctors have been so good to me. The facility has been like a second home because I’m constantly in and out for treatments and other appointments.
It gets increasingly difficult to look pass the many faces and not be moved by the devastation that cancer has inflicted on other lives. I often look at SCOA as a room filled with everyday people going on with their everyday lives, until cancer puts the breaks on. I’ve met people that have fought cancer two and three times in their lifetime and remain so positive about returning for another battle…now that’s strong! I have exchanged stories about treatment plans, diagnostics, chemo, and how we first discovered we had cancer. The experience has been eye opening in so many ways.
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So what’s next?…Surgery…then radiation. I have repeat testing for the MRI and other scans before I determine the type of surgery, which will likely be a bilateral mastectomy….ouch! I haven’t prepared mentally for surgery, one thing at a time I guess. I’m working on recouping from chemo so I can be strong enough for surgery.

 

Thanks for all the prayers, love, and continued support…. I’m pushing forward!   
Huggs,

 

Learning to Dance in the Rain

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“I want to live!”

It’s just that simple… I want to grow old and see my son graduate from college, get married, and give me grandchildren….is that too much to ask for? Well being diagnosed with cancer makes you think of all the ‘what if’s’….what if the cancer never goes away? What if it goes away and comes back? Then I start looking at survival rates and it becomes, how long will I live? The truth is anything can happen to anyone of us at any given time but for some reason, when your faced with a disease like cancer, it’s like someone just accelerated your life closer to death. Thoughts of death and sickness become the ‘elephant in the room’ you try to avoid it, you pray, you try to live a normal life but sickness and death are always in the back your mind. I wish that was not the case but it is for many people fighting this disease like myself.One way that I change the focus from cancer is by going to work. I work because keeping busy leaves less time for me to think about cancer… it’s the perfect distraction. I never thought I would admit that going to work gives me some sense of normalcy but it does. It’s actually a good feeling to leave the office on Friday and know that I made it through the entire work week. There are mornings that I dread waking up, I’m usually exhausted….sleep deprived and running on fumes. When the alarm goes off I wish for five extra minutes. Then I drag myself out of bed in time to slip out the door and make it into the office. I typically take the days following my chemo cycle off just so I can rest. Chemo days run together and come with long sleepless nights. I often find myself lying in the dark feeding my soul with prayer and positive thoughts. Sometimes I lay still enough to feel the heavy beating of my heart. Occasionally certain parts of my body twitch uncontrollably, I feel my fingers and toes become stiff at the joints and I get the worse charlie horse in my calves…boy, o boy are those painful. Let’s not talk about the bathroom trips…I haven’t used the bathroom this often since I was pregnant. I have to drink so much fluid to prevent dehydration but at the same time, I think my bladder wants to divorce me…seriously!

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The side effects
tongue pain & change in pigmentation, eyebrow & eyelash hair reduction or loss, lack of sleep, damage nails

Even on my worse nights I don’t doubt that life is worth living…Thankfully I’m able push forward every single day. I can smile because I know this to be true “I have cancer…cancer doesn’t have me.” I try to be optimistic about my future even during chemo cycles and testing. It’s hard to be optimistic when I’m hooked up to bags of lethal drugs that come with awful side effects. Some days I complain…some days I cry ‘I DON’T WANT TO BE STRONG’ …. Some days I ask why me? Then I feel guilty because I’m still here…Alive…and able to enjoy a life that so many people only dream. I’m grateful and I hope to fulfill my dreams and do all the crazy things I’ve always dreamed about doing, hopefully I won’t have to continue planning everything around the disease.

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My chemo care must haves for mouth, hair, skin, and comfort

I’m looking forward to October because…IT’S MY LAST CHEMO! I’ll still have to deal with the dreadful re-testing phase to see how successful the chemo and hormone therapy was on the tumor. Keep the prayers coming because surgery is the next big thing and while I’ve been able to work through out chemo I will have to take a month or two off to heal from surgery. I imagine this will be a tough holiday season 🙁  I plan on taking some time out to visit my friends and family in CT before I have surgery…not looking forward to the ‘human road map look’.  The scaring is so severe from any of the surgeries…UGH! I have been working on revamping my business and getting back to what I love to do…slowly but surely. I miss trunk shows, jewelry parties, and meeting great people all while building lasting relationships…the lyrics to the song “One day at a time,” just ran across my mind.

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Revamping my accessories business very soon!

I would like to discuss a few things in upcoming posts like, diet & exercise, support groups, and surgery and my thoughts on living life beyond the disease. I appreciate ALL of you that take the time out to support me on this journey, it has helped me tremendously!

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Loads of hugs!

XO

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The Waiting Game

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I’m hoping to be more consistent with these posts…really…I promise….well here we go…
After the pathology report I immediately met with my oncologist, Dr. Sommers at (SCOA), South Carolina Oncologist Associates followed by my surgeon Dr. Arrington to discuss my diagnosis and the treatment options available to me. Everything was happening so quickly…..one day you’re worrying about shades of lipstick…. latest fashion trends…. then the next day you’re tossed into a whirlwind of tests and appointments with doctors that will help to determine the best treatment for your type of cancer. You worry and question everything, it’s inevitable. Questions race through your mind every second of the day. Have I chosen the right doctor? How will I pay my bills? Will I be able to work? And how will this affect my family?
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My son loves the nurses…LOL!
The wait is terrifying and not knowing invites fear and doubt….a nightmare that you don’t get to wake up from. During these times prayer and faith will help you sleep at night…trust me you will need sleep. I had to let faith guide me during the darkest times otherwise; I would have never made it through the storm Besides, I still have so much ahead of me with treatments. Every test was literally like waiting to exhale. The first test was the…. MRI, which gave more in dept information about the cancer, in the right breast and detected fibroedenoma in the left breast. Then the PET scan, which had me in tears because I had to stay away from children (my son), elderly, sick, and pregnant for that entire day because I was radioactive…then I had to  wait for results, and finally good news…. the cancer had not spread to other areas or organs in the body. The echocardiogram was done to see if my heart could with stand the chemo dosage. I remember the technician saying “you have a beautiful heart, “which really stood out because I had been so tense and unhappy.
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My port placed under the skin
 My ‘team’ which now consists of nurse navigators, an oncologist, surgeons, and other medical staff hope for the best. They are wonderful at reassuring me that everything will be ok and that there will be a light at the end of this dark tunnel. I had never imaged this life and I would never want it for anyone. The blood work, needle pricks, surgical procedure, and constant monitoring, sadly becomes your new normal and just like any change in life you learn to adjust and move from one day to the next.
I met a phenomenal woman named Angela, who is a ‘survivor’ one day after an appointment with my oncologist at SCOA. I later nicknamed her ‘Angela the angel’….she has such a beautiful soul. She must have seen that look on my face the day I had to schedule yet another appointment for more tests. I was drained and still having a tough time processing the news of my new life with cancer. We sat in the lounge at SCOA talking about how cancer had impacted our lives. She had gone through the tunnel and I was just beginning the journey. She was diagnosed as triple negative and I’m triple positive.  It was refreshing to meet her and hear her story. I needed her presents more than she would ever know. We met for a play date the following weekend with her twin girls and my son…such a happy day! We let the kids run around the park while we chatted about life….exchanged stories about our different diagnostics and she shared what I needed to expect from chemo. There is no better feeling than sharing with someone that understands and can relate to how you feel and what you’re going through. She helped me get through the first two chemo cycles…laughter filled….and comfortable. We will talk more about her in later posts. In the meantime please stop by and check out her blog “Lucky Duck Hits Speed Bump,” where she documented her breast cancer experience.
I made a decision early on that I was going to fight! I prayed daily for God to provide me with all of the tools, support, and guidance to weather this storm. I wasn’t going to throw the white flag in this early in journey…. I have too much to live for. By the time I met with the nurse to discuss the chemo regimen, I was already a stronger person than I had been when I initially got the dreadful diagnosis. I wasn’t looking forward to chemo at all. I had heard mixed reviews about it doing more harm than good, creating new cancers, the debilitating side effects, and just how dangerous it was because it is a toxic drug being infused into the body that would ultimately drain the body of its resources in every way possible.
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Angela and her beautiful girls
I prepared for my first cycle by having surgery to implant the port under my skin in my chest to deliver chemotherapy to the largest blood vessel. The surgery was outpatient and lasted about 8 hours. That port itched like crazy and was so painful for the first month. I had to add a sponge piece to my seatbelt to keep it from rubbing against it when I drive my car. It left the ugliest scar and the chemo changed the pigmentation of my skin so it’s a darker shade.
 The one on one meeting with my chemo specialist ( Denise) to go over what to expect during each cycle was extremely helpful and very much needed because I had tons of questions. She reviewed the treatment regimen patiently…she was wonderful, personal able, and upbeat, which made me feel better. We went over my chosen drug options, side effects, and scheduling for each chemo cycle. My oncologist and surgeon decided that I would do chemo first to shrink the tumor, followed by surgery, radiation, and then 10 years of a daily pill called Tamoxifen…. Cancer really sucks! My chemo drugs (TCH)Taxotere, Carboplatin, and Herceptin along with a new drug recently approved about 2 years ago by the FDA for use before breast surgery called Perjeta My chemo cocktails are pretty serious. I have a combination of chemo and hormonal drugs because of my type of cancer. Each drug specifically targets the tumor in different ways. There have been so many advancements in medicine and even more benefits from continued efforts of researchers all over the world. My chemo cycles are every 3 weeks at the SCOA facility. They are very routine and closely monitored.

Chemo Cycle 1

·         Check in at 7:45
·         Lab work
·         Weight & blood pressure
·         7 hours (combination of prepping with anti nausea drugs, IV, & 4 different chemo drugs)
·         Next day Nuelasta shot
·         Follow up 1 week later with oncologist
·         Lab work
·         Weight & blood pressure
·         (repeat the same for Cycles 2-6)
How you feel following each Chemo cycle
Ø  Day 1
Nuelasta shot
Fatigue
Muscle & joint pain (Claritin helps if taken for 5 days after chemo)
Ø  Day 2
More Fatigue (rest)
Sense of taste is off (only taste salt & sweet)
Mouth sensitivity (Magic mouthwash works wonders)
Dehydration (fluids, fluids, fluids)
Diarrhea & or constipation
Blur vision (at certain times of the day)
Ø  Day 3 & 4
*The worst days
Extreme fatigue
Loss of appetite
Insomnia
Joint pain
Mouth sores
Confusion
Anxiety
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You notice a new side effect with each chemo cycle. The first noticeable change was gradual hair loss 15 days after my first chemo infusion.  I knew it was coming, I siked myself into thinking it was no big deal but I still cried. I shed like an unkempt dog for days…hair when I woke up…hair when I showered…hair everywhere. I eventually cut it very low but in just a few days it began to come out at the roots in patches. I was losing my hair and would eventually go bald, I was losing control, and feared what this disease and chemo treatments would do to my body.  You can’t prepare for it; you just deal with it as it comes.
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Day 15 after 1st chemo cycle
I began to realize that this was pretty much my new life…on top of working full time, and being a mother to an active 5 year old. I had to learn to roll with the punches…hopefully no one has to deal with this but if you do… be prepared to go in the ring and have a few jabs thrown at you. The world doesn’t stop spinning, people continue on with their day to day lives. You miss out on all kinds of fun stuff, while you’re spending the weekend napping from complete exhaustion but you move forward.

 

 I have been blessed with the most amazing support system. My friends, family, and other supporters have made this journey more bearable. When everything seems out of control and overwhelming, they remind me to relax and take a deep breath. It is absolutely necessary to surround yourself with positive people. Living with cancer can be very lonely and depressing. You have to live beyond the disease and not let it hold you hostage. 
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Smooches!
 
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