I believe in happiness…true happiness..we search for it all our lives and want it all the time because it’s hard to come by. I remember thinking that I would never be happy again. I was sick, fatigue, and depressed during most of treatment, It was difficult to even imagine a future. I use to think what is the point of planning for something down the line when down the line may never come for me. When your younger in age and newly diagnosed, everyone says your just so young to have cancer, breast cancer in particular. It was once considered a disease for older women. I’ve met women in their 20’s and 30’s who fight this disease everyday. We are a close community of women that have a common goal…beat cancer into remission!
As I stated in my previous post this month is my cancerversary..2 years cancer free. I hope to stay in remission forever. I can’t imagine a recurrence, I don’t know that I would be as strong as the first time around. This disease is nothing you can prepare for, their is no manual, no two cancers are the same, and no two individuals cope with the disease and treatment the same. I pray for my health all the time, something we all take for granted.
I never celebrated my 1 year cancerversary. I honestly thought I would totally jinx myself. The fear was still there, the horror from the whole ordeal was too fresh in my mind.This year I’ve been working real hard on building myself up, I’ve been focusing on what brings me happiness. I would stay in bad relationships because I focused more on someone else happiness. Now I can walk away and not feel any level of guilt. It’s not that I don’t care about them, it’s just that I care about me more! What steps are you taking to find your happiness?
My first step was to start doing things that I enjoy doing, even if no one else wants to do it with you. I enjoy blogging…so I blog! I like shopping and since I have a limited budget, I thrift and combine my thrifted finds with accessories and maybe one new item. For example, the dress I’m wearing was less than $22…I was shocked it fit, the only issue is the lining under it is too short, I will work on getting it properly lined inside. I love the lace design, it makes the dress. The gladiator sandals are new but with in my budget. I don’t think you need to shop all the time. I recycle my outfits over and over again.
I made my own floral crown…I really need to do a DIY section cause I’m always making stuff. I love art and that is another passion that I plan on incorporating into my blog. I hope you all enjoy the pictures and have a great weekend!!
Dress: Buy it here /see similar here
Sandals: buy it here
floral crown: DIY here
Bag: See similar here
Accessories: Old from my jewelry line
Are you wearing the wrong style jeans? I know that there are so many jean styles on the market that work for different body shapes. I personally live for high waisted skinnies because it works best for my pear shaped body. I think the trick to finding the right type of jeans is to first identify your own body type. A pear shaped body type has a smaller bust, waist, and we are more
heavy curvy on the bottom, as a matter of fact when I put on weight, it shows most in my legs and butt. I think that high waisted jeans work best for curvy girls like myself.
I love it when I come across the perfect pair of jeans. I consider the perfect jeans one that makes my waist look smaller, they have to stretch, hide belly fat, and belly bulge. I avoid low-rise or hipster jeans because they expose muffin tops and butt crack. If I find a pair of jeans that fit my hips and butt really good, it usually has too much room in the back. When I find one pair that works, I usually pick up the same style in several colors. I don’t like spending a fortune on jeans, I won’t pay over $40 for a pair jeans. I buy jeans any where I find them and I have no loyalty to any particular brand. The pair I’m wearing are Signature Levi Strauss & Co. from Walmart they cost $20.
I have big calves, thick thighs, and plenty of booty. I look for jeans that not only compliment my figure but they have to be comfortable. I don’t want to always wear a belt to keep them from having a big gap in the back. It use to be frustrating finding a nice pair of jeans that almost fit. I use to take in the back of all my pants until high waisted fashion came into the picture. I love how nowadays more and more fashion is made for curvy women who don’t wear size 4, I’m a size 10. I think more women are beginning to celebrate there bodies and companies are finally paying attention.
The fact that the word “curvy” is now used in describing a line or collection of clothing makes me happy. I like Walmart’s selection because they are affordable and they usually come in a few other colors, so I can grab more than one pair. A higher waist is a plus because you can rock a crop top, tuck the shirt in and have a polished look in in the end. I found the top at TJ Maxx, it’s a pastel pink color with crotchet design. It hangs off the shoulder and adds a feminine and sexy feel to the outift. I wore the shoes in a recent post with a rolled up leg jean style, I think they look great with skinny jeans as well. This is one trend I’m happy to see make a come back from “mom jeans” status to a more trendy, flattering jean style. I personally hope the style stays around for as long as possible. What are some of your favorite jean styles?
Enjoy the rest of the week!
Blouse: TJ Maxx, similar here
I finally got around to posting an outfit of the day!…yikes… It’s been a long time since I’ve had the courage to model in front of the camera. Mainly because I have gained weight and I’ve had no desire to showcase these extra pounds. Most of the weight is due to medication, which causes all sorts of hormone changes and slows down my metabolism. I feel so sluggish and achy some days. Another problem is I don’t have as much energy as I use to,thanks to chemo and radiation. My body has seen the worst of times over this past year. It use to be effortless to take pictures and feel confident. Now I’m worried about covering up scars and ways to hide my weight gain, it’s exhausting.
I wasn’t motivated to lose the weight until recently. I was stuck, I ate more, didn’t exercise and felt tired all the time. It was a horrible feeling. At first I thought I was putting back on the weight I lost during treatment. Then it just crept up on me and wouldn’t budge. I couldn’t take it anymore, I was uncomfortable all the time. Nothing fit and I refused to go shopping for larger sizes. I decided to join the gym, I go 3-4 times a week, for at least two hours, thankfully the pounds are slowly melting away and my energy is coming back. I feel better overall, I guess exercise really does the body good.
I had a latissimus Dorsi Flap
procedure in October of last year. I have yet to complete my reconstruction. I’ve put it off for months because I was tired of being carved up. Cancer really sucks!..nothing worse than having scars all over and breasts that have no sensation. I have one temporary tissue expander
in my left boob and an actual silicon implant in the other. The whole experience has been one crazy emotional mess.
I feel like there is no plan for life after treatment. When I started out, there was a plan, a diet, a routine, it sucked but it was a “road map” to recovery. I don’t know that I will ever get use to life after treatment. I was lost for a while, I found it hard to adjust, which is weird because I’m usually in control and adapt to change easily.
I’m not going to complain though, I know countless women who have metastatic breast cancer
(stage IV) terminal cancer that will be in treatment for the rest of there lives. Having any terminal disease is a tough reality to live with daily. My heart goes out to them.
I try stay focused and positive. It helps with depression and survivors guilt. I wanted to get back to doing something I love to do. Fashion has always been one of my favorite hobbies so I wanted to get back to blogging. These days I look for fit and comfort when choosing pieces for my wardrobe. I go for clothes with higher necklines, loose fit, and patterns that compliment my style. I’ve always loved a pair of jeans and pumps, it just works well for different occasions. I’ve had the jacket for a while, it’s by Loft, see a similar style here
. The bag and pumps were affordable pieces from T.J. Maxx. The blouse is from spring of last year, I purchased it at Kohl’s.
I hope you enjoy the pictures and as always, thanks for stopping by…XO!
What’s it like to feel alive? It’s like dancing to the beat of your own drum….Making No apologies for who you are…. Feeling calm during a storm…. Being at peace in your heart…. No holding back…. Loving freely and doing ALL the things you have always wanted to do!!
Hi Guys…it’s a new year already and I haven’t done an outfit of the day (OOTD) post since October 2013….My, my, my how time flies. I had taken a break from blogging when I relocated, then got diagnosed with breast cancer and…well… you know the rest. I start my 6 week radiation treatments this week and I still have monthly appointments for Herceptin therapy but I’m feeling really good about life. I now see the more optimistic side of things…the glass half full instead of half empty theory. I will be doing external beam radiation to the chest wall on the effected right side. I wasn’t able to undergo immediate reconstruction because of the need to radiate that area. My oncologist and radiologist both felt that the expanders would interfere with treatment and may possibly create more discomfort for me if they were put in place. It may be another 6-9 months before I can even entertain the idea of reconstruction because of the damage that radiation does to the skin. Any who… I’m not sweating it, it’s kind of nice not to wear a bra because they are really uncomfortable anyways. Besides what’s there to complain about?…I’m alive and well!
I found this Ankara print skirt while surfing Etsy for Christmas gifts. Naturally I had to buy myself something 😉 The shop name is RegalClothes and I absolutely LOVE the quality of the skirt. The stitch work, accuracy of the sizing, and service were impeccable…Check them out, they have wonderful merchandise. I hope you enjoy the pictures & thanks for stopping by!
Happy hump day everyone! I’m so sorry for my absence. I’ve been out of town for a few days and I needed to take some time away from social media to focus on other areas of life. I’m sure you all know how that goes. Well let’s jump right into today’s post, my first guest post of the year. I’d like for you all to meet the fabulous Deidre, she is the owner of a hot fashion blog called Frugal Flirty N Fab and she’s a BLM sista!
I love Deidre’s smile, it can brighten any cloudy day and she’s super stylish. She writes, “ I’ve been blogging a little over 3 years and It’s been some of the best years I’ve had.” She goes on to say, ” I started the Frugal Flirty N Fab because I wanted to see more of a variety when it comes to seeing people of color represented in a more positive light when it comes to Magazines, Movies, Tv and even Marketing.”
What I love most about her style is that she looks great in her outfits! I would totally shop in her closet because she rocks pieces that I love as well and did I mention that her hair is to die for, that honey blond color is beautiful in her natural hair. I love that her hair is always on point!!
She wants her readers to know that, ” Looking Great and Feeling great should never cost a fortune.” and that she is a ” mom, wife, full time employee and a lover of all things fashion.” What do you all think of her style? My favorite look is the orange skirt and black top, what’s your fave?
Please stop by and show her some love on her blog! You can also find her on Facebook , She’s hoping to take the fashion world by storm, one frugal post at a time! Well, Deidre your well on your way 😉
Thanks for visiting!