I remember when I was first diagnosed with breast cancer. I thought that I would never see myself the same way again. The funny thing is I don’t, I had lost my hair a few weeks into treatment and I immediately began losing weight. I was stressed all the time, I thought about death all the time, and I worried all the time. It took about a year to move on and I imagine it will take a lifetime to adjust to all the changes.
Truth is one day you wake up and you realize that your still here. All your friends will move on and
the out pour of attention from your initial diagnosis to the end of treatment will slowly dissipate. In the beginning of treatment everyone wants to know how they can help. When you complete treatment, they assume your fine because you look healthier. It’s all one big misconception, I’ve watched women with terminal cancer look like they never had the disease to begin with so the saying ” don’t judge a book by it’s cover” is the best cliche phrase to describe breast cancer. Did you know that decades later this disease can return? It’s horrible to think that after poisonous treatments like chemo and radiation, the treatment process would have to be repeated. It’s the kind of reality that no one should ever have to face especially since it’s likely to return as stage IV terminal cancer.
The word “terminal” is so chilling, just imagine there never being an end to treatment. I’m sure you’ve all seen adults and children in your news feed on Facebook holding signs that read ” Today is my last chemo” in celebration of the end of treatment or at least one part of treatment. Can you imagine there never being an end? Can you imagine doing chemo and radiation for as long as your body is able to hold up? Once you become terminal, that is the plan. People living with metastatic breast cancer will go from one treatment to another until it either stops working or you stop working, meaning death.
How does anyone live a “normal” life knowing that death is right around the corner because there is no cure. There is so much emphasis placed on building awareness but so little goes towards actual research to find a cure! It’s infuriating to see how much money so many non profits raise each year but there are still hundreds of men and women dying from the disease everyday. If you really want to make a difference support organizations like Metavior
! It’s one of the only organizations that puts the majority of your money towards research to find an actual cure.
Just imagine how many lives we could save!
As always thanks for stopping by I hope you love the pictures xoxo!
Blouse TJ Maxx
Shoes by NineWest sold at Ross
What’s it like to feel alive? It’s like dancing to the beat of your own drum….Making No apologies for who you are…. Feeling calm during a storm…. Being at peace in your heart…. No holding back…. Loving freely and doing ALL the things you have always wanted to do!!
Hi Guys…it’s a new year already and I haven’t done an outfit of the day (OOTD) post since October 2013….My, my, my how time flies. I had taken a break from blogging when I relocated, then got diagnosed with breast cancer and…well… you know the rest. I start my 6 week radiation treatments this week and I still have monthly appointments for Herceptin therapy but I’m feeling really good about life. I now see the more optimistic side of things…the glass half full instead of half empty theory. I will be doing external beam radiation to the chest wall on the effected right side. I wasn’t able to undergo immediate reconstruction because of the need to radiate that area. My oncologist and radiologist both felt that the expanders would interfere with treatment and may possibly create more discomfort for me if they were put in place. It may be another 6-9 months before I can even entertain the idea of reconstruction because of the damage that radiation does to the skin. Any who… I’m not sweating it, it’s kind of nice not to wear a bra because they are really uncomfortable anyways. Besides what’s there to complain about?…I’m alive and well!
I found this Ankara print skirt while surfing Etsy for Christmas gifts. Naturally I had to buy myself something 😉 The shop name is RegalClothes and I absolutely LOVE the quality of the skirt. The stitch work, accuracy of the sizing, and service were impeccable…Check them out, they have wonderful merchandise. I hope you enjoy the pictures & thanks for stopping by!
Hello guys & dolls!! I’m loving blue shades this season. I simply adore the way blue in various shades looks with black. I’ve had this dress for some time and I’ve only worn it once before but thought I’d pull it out the closet today.
Whats even more awesome is the fact that I’ve also had the shoes for a long time but never even realized they matched perfectly.
I found the shoes online at Bakers this past spring or early summer, can’t remember right now but I knew I had to have them 😉
I wanted a sophisticated look with a little attitude. I’ve been working on understanding my style. I thought I might put it in a category like, trendy, chic, vintage, etc.. but after checking with some of my fave ladies #BLMgirls, I agree that it doesn’t have to be defined.
I don’t know that I would ever be able to define it anyways so I’ll just keep doing what I do. I’m enjoying the experience, making new friends, and that’s all that matters.
I hope you all like the pictures, please leave some feedback!
Hi Lovies, These are my Monday blues 😉 I love jeans and would wear it as often as possible if I could get away with it. I like soft denim with lots of stretch for comfort.
I will rock a great fitting pair of jeans to death.
I enjoy dressing up my jeans, you will see more looks like this one fairly often on my blog.
I find it really easy to be casual and girly at the same time, especially when I have on a pair of jeans.
I’ve had the jeans, belt, and clutch for over a year. The shoes and chambray shirt are recent buys from two of my favorite retailers. It’s funny how you can have certain pieces for years and style them differently over and over again.
It’s important to me to find quality pieces. I hate buying something that doesn’t hold up over time.
Since most styles and trends tend to historically resurface over the years, it’s good to hold on to items that you love. I wasn’t always able to fit the jeans. I had gained weight then lost weight and now they fit again 😉
Now I just pack things away and revisit them when I think they might fit me. I use to give things away but I usually regret it when I find things that would have worked perfectly but no longer have the item.
It’s going to be a busy week for me I hope you all enjoy the pictures and please leave me some feedback!
Lots of Kisses!!
Hi Guys! I’m taking another stab at YouTube. It’s been two years since I tried it for the first time and I thought it was time to do a new video. I’ll be utilizing my YouTube channel a lot more for OOTD features, health and beauty, personal stories etc. Please show support by Subbing and leaving a comment under each video, I would really appreciate it. Thanks for the continued support & XOXO.