Pink Cardigan & White Ripped Jeans

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After putting on those few extra pounds, I’ve decided to change up my wardrobe a little. I’ve always been a fan of fitted clothing but lately it seems to hug me in all the wrong places. I think once I shed the weight, I’ll feel more comfortable wearing certain styles. Until then I want my clothing to flow and compliment my curves.
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Women always want to feel sexy and pretty no matter the age or the circumstance. There are two breast cancer survivors that I follow on social media, Bold & Breastless and the other Prayers for Paulette 8 Children primarily because I can relate to them. I think they both show what true beauty means after cancer attacks your body. I love that they are using their personal testimonies to advocate for change and bring awareness to the harsh realities of the disease. When I considered getting back to blogging, I shot myself down every time because I knew I wouldn’t look or feel the same. I can remember days when I didn’t even want to get out of bed. I was fatigue all the time and I went through periods of depression. Basically I was a mess but seeing them fight the disease, raise their kids and maintain optimistic attitudes made them even more appealing. I thought if they could do it then so can I.

 

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I want to do things I enjoy for as long as possible or until my body says otherwise. My advice to anyone facing chronic or terminal illness would be to “live the best possible life you can live with no regrets.” I believe in starting by eliminating the things that don’t bring you happiness. Then change the way you treat yourself. Always love yourself, forgive yourself, and listen to what makes your heart smile. Don’t wait for anyone to give you what your lacking, make it happen for yourself.

 

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Please check out my video, I watched it over and over again…cracked myself up but I’m really proud of myself for giving it a shot. Who knows maybe I might make more!

 

 

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Jeans: JCPenny

Shoe: By Anna: JCPenny

Cardigan: Similar Here

Blouse: TJMaxx/similar Here

 

 

Love & Happiness

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Faith Prayer & Hope

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That was the message I pulled out of a fish bowl at the breast center before I went for my repeat mammogram. A reminder that I have never faced this battle alone. I was stressed at the thought of having to go through this process again. I remember the initial appointment like it was yesterday, I was coming for an appointment to check out a bothersome lump. I had no idea that I would be told that I had ‘cancer’…invasive, aggressive Her 2+ cancer. That day back in May has forever changed life. Ironically I was greeted by the same nurse who recognized my face from that first visit. We chatted about that initial diagnostic, how I was coping with treatment, and my feelings about going through this journey. She was as kind now as she was then, apologizing for ever having to break that type of news to anyone.
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I haven’t actually blogged in a while and its hard to believe that its been a month since I completed chemo and nothing…..I mean nothing has gone back the way it use to be. My hair for example, has been growing back a completely different texture. I’ve always had course, thick textured hair but the new growth is baby soft. I had eyebrows and lashes all through chemo but for some reason towards the end they thinned out and look like I have nothing. Just imagine a completely bare face, no hair on the head, eyebrows, or lashes. It is definitely a look that I will never get use to seeing in the mirror. I feel like a blank canvas and I jokingly have told friends and coworkers that I have to put on my face each day. The hair on my head is filling in mainly in the back and on the sides not so much on the edges or the top of my head, the growth pattern reminds me of a balding man. I’ve lost close to 30lbs since the start of chemo, which is the only exciting thing about this whole process. I’ve wanted to drop the weight but I’m a serious ‘YoYo’ dieter so I usually lose a little and gain much more! My taste buds have slowly returned so I can enjoy food again, there was a point when everything tasted like metal.
I have started Herceptin treatments alone, it’s an antibody that doesn’t give the same icky, awful side effects that I had during chemo. The Herceptin was a part of my chemo regimen (TCHP) Taxatore, Carbopatin, Herceptin, and Perjeta but I have to finish out the 52 week cycle that is recommended for this drug in order to achieve its full benefits. Taking Herceptin comes with one major side effect and that is heart function, it can damage the heart over time so I have routine echocardiograms to make sure it’s not deteriorating or showing reduced heart function from the drug.
I’ve been feeling pretty good so I was surprised to hear that my hemoglobin levels had not rebounded 3 weeks out from chemo. I have not felt any more tired than usual, I’ve even ventured out a bit more since chemo. At one point I went from work straight home and stayed in all weekend because a mistake like eating the wrong food while on chemo could be pretty explosive and not in a good way! My oncologist wanted to give my body the time to bring the hemoglobin levels up but surgery is needed and possibly radiation so even though, it increased from 7.3 to 8.0, it just is not high enough for the upcoming treatment options. We moved forward with 600 cc of blood to give my body the boost it really needed, the results from the transfusion are pending but I feel more energized than before.

 

I had to repeat my MRI and mammogram, my nerves were on edge because I can recall the initial mammogram like it was yesterday….Guess what? I wanted to share some great news! Take a look at the before and after pictures of my breast. I’ve circled the tumor in each photograph…notice anything different? No your eyes aren’t deceiving you, my tumor disappeared!!!! Your prayers have been working 😉 that along with the ability that God gives these scientist and researchers have made what use to be a death sentence, possible to treat successfully.

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I truly believe that my purpose is bigger than this disease. I’m so grateful for the many people who have kept me in constant prayer. I still have a long way to go with treatment and surgery is still taking place so while the battle isn’t over, I’m sure excited about all the wonderful ways I can help other women through my testimony.

Luv,

 

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